AND TRY AGAIN.
Yesterday I went to the skating rink with my always lovely boyfriend Max. I haven’t been on skates in about two or three years. It was scary and at the same time exciting. One little boy in particular caught my eye. He was having the hardest time in the world staying up. Every five minutes or so he would fall right down, eventually a few people began to stop to try and help him up but he would tell them no. He would just get up all by himself, and try again. His dad was on the outside of the rink just watching him, not saying a word. He had this look that almost said, thats right son just keep on going. No matter how hard he fell or if he was hurt, this little boy kept getting up without a struggle. He wanted to learn how to skate, badly. I admired that so much because of how many times I have given up on things that I wanted just because it hasnt worked out the first few times. I should keep trying, no matter what.
On another note, also having to do with this same little boy and also another one is that being raised as a strong person as opposed to “youre a kid and you can easily get hurt” is an interesting thought. The little boy that kept pushing through his pains, was obviously raised to think “Its alright just a little fall, im strong, i can do this”. Now there was another young boy, with his mom and his sister with him. He was also having a rough time learning to skate but in this case his mom and sister were right there by his side trying to help him. They would not let him fall, even if he tried to throw himself to the ground. Do you know how upset he looked? Or how long he decided to stay out on the rink? Not even half an hour. He gave up because whether his family realizes or not they were sending him a subconscious message of being weak and fragile and “you cant do it, thats why im helping you”.
Next time you see somebody struggle, be encouraging of course, but let them struggle. Its life. Its real. We are all strong.
Thanks Max, for our life talks, they bring out such wonderful thoughts and inspirations. <3
Desperation. Overwhelmed. Emotionally Exhausted.
I need a change.
This is what I look like when I want to be a superhero. I am Purp-Woman.
Thank You Courtney Cruz aka Preacha Cruz for making my starbucks drink with love. That blur in the background is you! :)
Cant wait till school is out. Saturday will be the official last day of this Fall semester. I need a break so badly that I think I am unconsciously draining myself of my own motivation. Please motivation come back to me and find my veins. Run through all my vessels and create ambition and drive. Pump in and out of my heart all the hopes and dreams that are rooted in you. Find the oxygen my body needs to stay alive and keep studying. Move one foot in front of the other until you are my atoms, my cells, my very being.
I need a break.
A good 80% of the time, I say sorry because I want to hear an apology too.
Is that wrong?
Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate. Brand-New at Starbucks for the holidays. It was pretty good if you ask me, very interesting flavor. Kind of like Chocolate covered pretzels.
“There is a time when man should forget loyalty and respect. Might and authority are given to rulers, but to all men is given love and strength and courage.” — The Lagoon by Joseph Conrad
I really, really do not want a job right now. Out of all the real jobs I have had I have not wanted a single one of them. And don’t think “what an ungrateful person”… Fuck you you have no idea how lucky I truly am to get jobs day in day out, and I fucking know that. Considering my situation I know how extremely blessed or looked over I am, because a few jobs have literally been handed to me in the palm of my hand. I just wish that I could just go to school and not worry about having to get a job. My confession is that the only reason I get jobs is to please my parents. To keep them happy and off my ass. I dont know if it’s because of how hard they work, or the era they grew up in, or because they feel us Mexicans are oppressed or what but my parents cannot just shut up about me having a job.
I just recently this semester found my love of learning (which I will blog about later) so I would really like to exercise this new found love. I really like to be really involved in one thing, and my priority right now is really education, knowledge and school. It really sucks that I feel such an immense pressure from my parents to have a job. It sucks. Really kills my positive bubble.
I just wish they understood, that money doesnt mean shit without a mind to back it up. Money does not make the world go round, KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.
One day, I promise I will say this to my parents and I will tell them how much it hurt to be this pressured into something I did not want to do. Anyway, always follow your dreams, and do what you love, everything in life is just a stepping stone. Just keep it up, you will get there.
(Source: xpreciousx, via aimtobedifferent-deactivated201)
What is more important in a relationship love or loyalty… and why?
Sookie… I mean Anna… You might possibly be my number one :)
Thank you for laughing in the face of adversity.
1. Scarlett Johansson *looong, deep sigh* oh you lovely, curvy, sexy woman. I remember the day I fell in love with you… I was reading an interview of you and you said “A real woman has curves, and that’s what I am”. Yes dear, yes… you… are.
2. Rachel McAdams *soft sigh* You are the definition of the girl next door. Fell in love with you while watching Sherlock Holmes. You’re a bad ass and beautiful. Also, who can forget you on the Notebook? Memories.
3. Zooey Deschanel *sigh* I love your voice. I love your eyes. I love your personality. I love your band She&Him. You’re just so goddamn beautiful.
4. Then of course, Sophia Vergara, Eva Mendes, Mila Kunis, Barbara Mori, Olivia Munn, Natalie Portman, Megan Fox, Miranda Kerr, the list is endless..
Women are so endlessly, utterly sexy and beautiful, inside and out. Be bold ladies!
Maxwell and I at the Happy Trails Chili Cook-Off in Apple Valley, CA.
The bathroom at the Eclipse art gallery is covered with comic book pages… this is one of my favorite “areas” of the walls. MUTUAL DISTRACTIONS!