I really, really do not want a job right now. Out of all the real jobs I have had I have not wanted a single one of them. And don’t think “what an ungrateful person”… Fuck you you have no idea how lucky I truly am to get jobs day in day out, and I fucking know that. Considering my situation I know how extremely blessed or looked over I am, because a few jobs have literally been handed to me in the palm of my hand. I just wish that I could just go to school and not worry about having to get a job. My confession is that the only reason I get jobs is to please my parents. To keep them happy and off my ass. I dont know if it’s because of how hard they work, or the era they grew up in, or because they feel us Mexicans are oppressed or what but my parents cannot just shut up about me having a job. 

I just recently this semester found my love of learning (which I will blog about later) so I would really like to exercise this new found love. I really like to be really involved in one thing, and my priority right now is really education, knowledge and school. It really sucks that I feel such an immense pressure from my parents to have a job. It sucks. Really kills my positive bubble.

I just wish they understood, that money doesnt mean shit without a mind to back it up. Money does not make the world go round, KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.

One day, I promise I will say this to my parents and I will tell them how much it hurt to be this pressured into something I did not want to do. Anyway, always follow your dreams, and do what you love, everything in life is just a stepping stone. Just keep it up, you will get there.